And I'm falling down in the uncertainty. I don't know where this will end. I'm depressed, bulimic, anorexic, frightened, obsessed and I also start to get these psychotic tendency again. I've started to hallucinate. I can see things that aren't real.. Lat night I screamed because there was a monkey in my room, or so I thought. I'm crayz.. When will this madness end?

And my words will be here when I’m gone. As I’m fading away against the wind. And the words you left me linger on as I’m failing again now, never to change this.

I just want to scream, loud. I want to die, I want to end this insanity! I don't know how much longer I can take this. I've gained 4 pounds and I've been 3 times at the casualty clinic in the last 7 days, just to sew my arm.

And it seems I’m alone here, hollowed again. As I’m failing again against the wind, and the scars I am left with swallow again as. I’m failing again now, never to change this.

I don't want to go through this once more. I just want to be normal!

And I’m sympathetic, never letting on. I feel the way I do. As I’m falling apart again at the seam, and I’m falling, falling, falling, falling, falling, falling, falling apart again at the seam.

The same old feelings are taking over and I can’t seem to make them go away, and I can’t take all the pressure sober, but I can’t seem to make it go away. (I can’t make it go away. I can’t make it go away)

before - after

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